February 2012
5 posts
I apologize in advance; the dipsomania is slowly subsiding. Yet, I can’t seem to conceal my feelings; my objective was to escape them.
I always seem to end up in this position. I get so close to pouring my heart out, until I decide to hold it in. Why should I complicate things, when everything could be so simple? Love… I just don’t know how to feel anymore; I’m confused,...
January 2012
17 posts
N.T.S. #4
Remember being a child and setting so many goals? What were those goals? Think back, refresh your memory, and retain those goals.
Just because reality got in the way, bringing a few hardships, doesn’t mean they’re unobtainable; it’ll just take some extra effort. Don’t lose yourself; take a stand and fight for what you believe in.
I’ve never verbally expressed my insecurities, especially my physical insecurities. There is no essence to complaining. I’ve never felt comfortable talking about them. Don’t like something? Do something about it; that’s how it’s always been. I’m not a fan of evoking pity.
It was different tonight; all that I have been bottling up inside of me spilt out of my...
Determination, Discipline, & Drive
Self-hate never ceased, I guess. The question has always been: How can you love someone that you hate? You can’t, but rather accept them. However, will acceptance induce happiness?
Without change, there is no way that I will ever love myself. I’m determined to become a better person; the person that I want to be, physically and mentally. This means discipline; I must sacrifice, in...
one-mic:
Home is where my (he)art is. I need to remind myself that I’m not at ho(me) anymore. I need to move the fuck forward in life.
WatchIt’s just a snippet of something I’m working on. I know; It’s pretty rusty, but I’m excited to record this, and to put the final product up.
It’s been about ten months since I’ve written and recorded, but I really put my whole heart into this verse.
I even threw out a fact about myself that not many people know, but you’ll have to wait for that.
I won't lie; I'm made of love.
But over time, I got… Dipped in pain, and covered with hate.
Somewhere along the way,
I stopped loving myself and lost my pride. But the one thing I still have is faith. I believe in myself; I can will change.
“Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie....”
– Date A Girl Who Reads by Rosemarie Urquico
Silence is the worst punishment.
I’m left here, questioning what actions caused this outcome. Am I supposed to be ignored, and wonder? Am I supposed to search for an answer or resolution? I don’t like games; actually, I hate them. I never win, and providing me with hints will not make me feel any better.
Take direct action. Don’t be afraid to be blunt with me. No matter how harsh the truth may be, I like it....
Real Live - Bullshit
Check him out -...
December 2011
10 posts
dreamongood:
I believe that it’s quite important in life to be open-minded. To not put restrictions or limits on things around you. You’ll be able to see life in a much different light, and not be restrained in an ignorant and dull shadow that most people live under.
I never thought that I’d receive any type of closure. Even after these four years, I always believed that I’d have to live with that little piece of pain that just wouldn’t disappear, but I did it.
To my first heartbreak: Thank you for healing that last scab of wound that just would not seal. Thank you giving me that slap of reality that I needed. Thank you for supporting and...
WatchHappy birthday to my cousin, @airieca-p!
I love this girl, regardless of the distance that separates us.
Even from New Jersey to Massachusetts, you are one of the closest people to me. Thanks for growing up with me, and remaining in touch, even though it was quite obligatory due to the fact that we’re bonded by blood.
I asked you to pick three artists that you wanted me to mash-up, only...
No, I don’t have the greatest voice;...
November 2011
11 posts
Frustration
Lose weight
Create a Mixtape
I only had two major goals, since summer ended. My English teacher assigned each student to write down all their long-term and short-term goals on a piece of paper, in September. My term ended two weeks ago, and he wanted us to update him on how we were doing. I honestly thought that I was on the right track, only to realize that I’m not.
Goal 1:
I worked...
I’m not a people person; let’s get that straight. Yet, networking is such a significant factor in catalyzing success; it manufactures connections, causing opportunities in the present and/or future. When my perception is focused on the larger image, my beliefs and opinions are put aside; I become a whole new person. I engage in different conversations, generating as many relationships...
Whenever I allow my heart to overpower my mind, I become so vulnerable that it frightens me; I’m at my most fragile stage. One action can either: make, or break, me; honestly, it’s quite frustrating. I spend so much time trying to construct myself into a strong person, only to be punched and kicked to the point where I can’t even stand on my own. I become unstable and end up...
Step it up, babygirl.
Know your roots; the struggles your ancestors had to face in order for you to live this life is not something to take for granted. You’ve been blessed with so many rights; work hard and make use of them. You have dreams and ambitions? Make it happen; all the work you put in now will pay off later, so stop slacking.
Focus, focus, focus!
The Tanning of America: How Hip-Hop Created a...
After Pharrell recommended The Tanning of America: How Hip-Hop Created a Culture That Rewrote the Rules of the New Economy on Twitter, I instantly knew that this book would be would be authentic, professional, and fascinating. Steve Stoute, the founder of Translation Consultation and Brand Imaging, specializes in connecting corporate brands with the community of hip-hop, which is refers to as...
Where I Live and What I Live For (Inspired by...
Just five miles northwest of downtown Boston, Medford is where I live. Cursed, yet blessed, with the New England weather; winter, spring, summer, and fall, is when we experience snow, winds, rain, heat, and sun. We’re not too busy, but not too isolated. From homes, parks, shopping areas, to schools, we are able to have many activity options. We can enjoy our own town, or travel by car, bus,...
I don’t want this to become a routine. I understand that it is okay to have fun and let loose, but I am too ambitious. Instead of living in the moment, I’m focused on the final image - the outcome.
The past few months have been fun, quite amazing even. I feel emotionally composed; I’m happy, genuinely happy. Just a few months ago, my friends and family saved my life. At first...
October 2011
17 posts
Some just become jea(lust).
one-mic:
And being that inv-o-l-v-e-d just looks like being in-l-o-v-e, when really, being care(less) with love, really is just being care(lust) over being love(less). Infat(you)ation becomes more of a sit(you)ation because a lustful relationship often times end without being mutual when one individual feels more attach(meant) than the other.
WatchI could select each and every one of my flaws and list them out, or I could just accept the fact that it’s okay to let loose every now and then, and bust out in Nicki Minaj when I’m bored at home on a Saturday night. You can tell that I don’t really know the song… Oh well, schwag.
Lately, I haven’t had much time to kick...
“Words don’t mean shit if your actions contradict.”
– (via yanrwtb)
I’ve been debilitated for the past two weeks, and I’m finally rejuvenating; frankly, it’s ecstatic. Inertia has almost drove me insane; however, I realized that I shouldn’t push myself past my health limits. Results were developing and unveiling rapidly, therefore I wanted to expedite the process. I felt my immune system slowly collapsing, yet I continued.
Every action has...
We can form a verbal contract to remain bonded forever, but it’ll never be guaranteed; only time will tell. I am too accustomed to having you in my daily life. Whenever I cross paths with an issue, you’re the first person I seek. You used to listen, never inputting any remarks or critiques. Though, everything between us has changed recently.
My secrets have become your regular...